When you have someone who cares about you with all her heart and is so sure about the way she feels about you but you give her reasons to doubt, reason to misbelieve, reasons to misjudge and misunderstand situations; you lose her just a little bit at a time until you lose her completely.

When all her attention is reserved for you yet she feels at the mercy of a miracle to gain some attention from you; constantly seeking an opportunity to catch the glance of your eye or a beat of your heart to be dedicated to just her but it never happens while you continue to be the air she breathes and the rhythm of her every singly heartbeat, she continues to be your for granted complimentary side dish that you didn’t even order.

See, depriving her of the attention and love and devotion that she rightfully deserves and constantly craves from you will only push her further and further away. For these games that you play might have worked on some high school girl in winning her over but this girl right here, you already have her and her heart is already  etched with your name on it, your little tactics that you’re trying to pull off will only remove you from where she has so prestigiously placed you.

She looks at you with pure love, you see her only with lust. Don’t you see, she will live up to the better that she deserves. When someone else fills the spaces that you have been leaving empty in her life for so long, she will be gone.

When she’s tired of being the only one to put in an effort, she will be gone.

When you have pushed her so far away that she can’t even see a single reason to hold on, that’s when all the little reason of leaving you will come together and you will finally lose her.

Once you have crossed every last limit of ignorance and tested the last bit of her patience that is when she will let go for good. And once you have finally lost the one girl you actually wanted to stay, you will be the one who will be left empty and alone. For it is only when she is gone; you will realize what you have lost.